tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-56994873967225633722024-02-20T14:03:37.119-06:00Single Mom Laughingwords, funny kid shit, and more words.sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.comBlogger63125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-46378158062399735492020-07-21T17:41:00.005-05:002020-07-22T11:12:35.234-05:00sunday afternoon<p class="MsoNormal">Finn, brushing his curls from his eyes, earnestly asking to
go to the park. “I pack my bag mom, I got my toys. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s go?” I stayed up too late the night
before, fixated on a train wreck of a reality tv show.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The dog woke me at 6 am, her cold nose in my
back, asking for breakfast. “Ok,” I yawn, stretching, standing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let’s go.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Water bottle, Spider-man mask, the blue transformer and a Wolverine
“I can read!” book. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Off we go.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">We rarely get days like this on the peninsula. Barely a speck of white in the sky, slight, sweet breeze off the water, sun warm on my freckled, pale
shoulders. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>These are the days tourists
flock here for. </p><p class="MsoNormal">Finn squeals at the sight of the slides and the swings, the big climbing boulders.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He hurriedly tries to work his buckle, his
sweaty little hands uselessly pushing the release button. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Finally, free from his car seat, he skirts the
fence, up to the playground. He is wearing his flip flops and decides to switch
into his tennis shoes, as the sharp little rocks find their way to the soft
soles of his feet. <o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgc32ilD-RXo-JYyWM1UvLWTVaFc_YKQvt9BzduSRK0CjXfrGR-WLb7gM9QZzau3s_pxvvovfGZHthKzbDqZ8GDz02gaOmcktQeAmMr8hR9Lefx8aLu595OndsIi3GTawk0McjGgdWx-aA/s1800/2806D017-AB42-4D61-836D-96C961478376.JPG" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgc32ilD-RXo-JYyWM1UvLWTVaFc_YKQvt9BzduSRK0CjXfrGR-WLb7gM9QZzau3s_pxvvovfGZHthKzbDqZ8GDz02gaOmcktQeAmMr8hR9Lefx8aLu595OndsIi3GTawk0McjGgdWx-aA/s320/2806D017-AB42-4D61-836D-96C961478376.JPG" /></a>He had tossed his tennis shoes into his back pack and I hadn’t
checked to see which ones. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I saw they
were the too small ones, the black ones with the white stripes. He still
manages to push his foot into them, only to take a step and change his mind. “It’s
okay, mom, I wear my ‘fip fops.”</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">One hour turns into two. I take the occasional break from
running, chasing, to open my book and try to find where I left off, only to
hear his voice calling from across the playground, “Mommy! Watch this! Are you
watching? Mom!”<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">A blonde haired little girl walks up, holding hands with her
very pregnant mother. Finn’s eyes widen in delight. “My friend! My friend is
here!” Finn doesn’t know a stranger. Everyone is his friend. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal">I observe the little girl and her mother, communicating with
their hands. She is deaf.</p><p class="MsoNormal"><o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">I whisper to Finn that she can’t hear his voice, that her
ears aren’t the same as his. He stares curiously, unabashedly, as four-year-olds do, and watches them talking with their
hands.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">A few minutes, barely, and they are running, playing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Her hands fly, and he wants to be part of it.
He starts moving his fingers, slowly at first, and then, gaining confidence,
flinging them around in earnest, his brown eyes searching her face for
approval. <o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">Another hour, and it’s time to leave. His friend is gone,
and I zip up his bag, feeling the sweet burn of my now rosy shoulders. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It will be miserable later, but it’s
everything right now.<o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">At home, he sits across from me on the back patio, hands
sticky with strawberries and peanut butter. His eyes are tired and I say
so.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“I don’t got tired eyes, Mom! I got
wake up eyes!” he responds, widening his eyes and giggling. <o:p></o:p></p>
<p class="MsoNormal">He quiets down a bit, eyes trained on his peanut butter
cracker.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Soon, his chin drops, and he is
asleep, sitting in his chair. <o:p></o:p></p><br />sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-5740421393434433372017-07-16T23:34:00.001-05:002017-07-17T11:30:20.046-05:00Illahee <div class="MsoNormal">
<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJsYn9DHm8NgqxW2Q0NMyzpM5VVzg3eXBjypJJ3hIT95YTyoAeDYl3QI5FfXiSCgoo1XQPwE0KVUpIL5XKGDOxl4JAJ-RF6HXyAxvkmVVeVmer7F3aDFjCSiADnDZ-2xQfMVrU8qkrTLs/s1600/FullSizeRender.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="747" data-original-width="750" height="316" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJsYn9DHm8NgqxW2Q0NMyzpM5VVzg3eXBjypJJ3hIT95YTyoAeDYl3QI5FfXiSCgoo1XQPwE0KVUpIL5XKGDOxl4JAJ-RF6HXyAxvkmVVeVmer7F3aDFjCSiADnDZ-2xQfMVrU8qkrTLs/s320/FullSizeRender.jpg" width="320" /></a><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">3 years on<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">and still,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">eating oranges on your porch,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">and the slant of the sun off the water<span id="goog_1187511656"></span><span id="goog_1187511657"></span><o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">lingers<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I wonder if you remember,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">laughing at the flowers I picked.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">(you called them weeds)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">but they still sat in water<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">on your kitchen table<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">that summer was so hot<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">the nights, too<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">especially the first <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">do you remember?<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">it’s strange to think about,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">now<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">that we almost bought a house<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">I remember, your eyes, when we pulled up the carpet,</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">and saw the oak,</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">dusty, but there</span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">and the weight of your hand<o:p></o:p></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">on the small of my back<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">in Discovery Bay, when we met,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">that last time,<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">for a beer.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><br /></span></div>
<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">3 years on, and still</span><o:p></o:p></div>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-19012273200772233542015-05-18T00:26:00.000-05:002015-05-18T03:00:25.895-05:00death on a monday<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-15455620909493587782014-10-22T22:12:00.001-05:002014-10-27T17:38:51.356-05:00nothing to say (so much)<div class="MsoNormal">
<i>“why don’t you ever write about me?”</i></div>
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you wondered aloud, </div>
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one night, in july</div>
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eyes trained above my head</div>
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whisky-heavy breath</div>
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not quite reaching my face</div>
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<br /></div>
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i tried to, </div>
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you see,</div>
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but my hand ached,</div>
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pencil gripped tightly</div>
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as i searched for something to write</div>
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<br /></div>
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that i knew <br />
would stay-<br />
something</div>
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<i>(you wouldn’t erase)</i></div>
sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-26104674777010149632014-03-16T20:51:00.001-05:002014-03-28T18:55:56.559-05:00Moments<div class="MsoNormal">
He stands in front of me, his hair dark and soggy with
shower water, sloppily combed to the side, sliding his delicate hands over the random shit on my nightstand, nonchalantly. He has no
boundaries- what is mine is his, and that is all he has ever known. Absentmindedly, he fingers
the edge of one of the books I haven't yet finished, rests on my camera, and pauses for a split second before he raises it to his face. He aims his probing little eye
through the finder,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>focuses on
something across the room, and then sets the camera back down, with a sigh. His eyes meet mine. He isn’t embarrassed that I'm watching him so
closely; he isn’t that self-aware yet. He stretches up, up, reaching his scrawny arms above his head and yawns, loudly. </div>
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<br></div>
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I catch a whiff of
something, soapy, clean.</div>
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<br></div>
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"Are you wearing deodorant?"</div>
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<br></div>
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"Yes," he answers,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>matter-of-factly. "It makes me feel like a man."</div>
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<br></div>
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Then he turns and skips out of the room, his spiderman pajama shirt
tucked into the back of his underwear.</div>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-8711174839942136482014-03-09T14:17:00.001-05:002014-03-16T23:31:34.728-05:00your urgent matters<div class="MsoNormal">
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only a few weeks into</div>
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it <i>(whatever it was)</i></div>
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you came home</div>
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reeking of </div>
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stained, soured hours</div>
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and stale smoke,</div>
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from the road</div>
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<br /></div>
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twisted in your sheets</div>
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as the door slammed</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: right;">
your hello</div>
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<br /></div>
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you pushed your tongue</div>
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feverishly inside me,<br />
and my lips split red<br />
against my teeth<br />
<br />
didn’t even notice<br />
the wet pillow, or</div>
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the damp on my cheeks</div>
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when finally,<br />
<br />
you<br />
were through<br />
<br />
<i>(how did you not see?) </i><br />
that night,<br />
even the flowers were bleeding<br />
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<i><br /></i>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-8515468982627940242013-12-05T14:23:00.000-06:002013-12-31T01:02:31.256-06:00can we just rewind<div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">if only</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">you'd been</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">a one-night stand,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">drenched in wine,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">sweat soaked sheets in a peach-dusted dawn</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">just a hazy recollection of some</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">lustful, wasted night</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">where the morning fog</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">found you gone</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;"><br /></span>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-61311321020502750032013-11-10T13:03:00.000-06:002013-11-10T13:07:51.550-06:00the weight of you (me)<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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<i><span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">“It’s when someone else’s happiness depends on me- that’s
when I find it hard to breathe.”</span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">that’s what she said. that’s what she wrote. that’s what she
sang, drenching every note with who gives a fucks and leave me alones.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">in the mirror, smearing the fog away, it was hard to lie
to herself. the fear of her happiness depending on someone else- that’s what
really kept her at bay.</span></div>
<!--EndFragment-->sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-46697952469949520152013-10-06T05:28:00.000-05:002013-10-06T19:50:11.490-05:00but we found common ground, in our blood, in our sound<br />
you whispered in the dark<br />
about the things<br />
that break you<br />
<br />
and all I could think<br />
about<br />
was how<br />
<i>those</i><br />
are the things<br />
<br />
that<br />
<br />
make mesweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-26907248914320209212013-09-28T04:31:00.000-05:002013-09-28T09:14:03.460-05:00viva<br />
burnt dust<br />
seeps through the window,<br />
slides against the curtain,<br />
threadbare<br />
<br />
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moves<br />
in la brisa<br />
piano playing fingers<br />
at the finish<br />
de una canćion de amor<br />
<div>
<br />
car siren wails,</div>
incoherent spanish
<br />
drifts up<br />
<br />
shadows still paint<br />
the walls,<br />
again<br />
<br />
at 3 am<br />
<br />
different room,<br />
same thoughts<br />
<br />
just mixed<br />
with hindsight<br />
<br />
and<br />
<br />
tequila shots<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
for reference: <a href="http://www.singlemomlaughing.blogspot.mx/2013/04/lets-talk-about-weather.html">let's talk about the weather</a>sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-37902697244674937842013-09-24T01:30:00.000-05:002013-12-26T21:50:16.857-06:00great expectations<br />
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<div style="text-align: left;">
when the glass was full,</div>
</div>
<br />
<div style="text-align: left;">
i almost <i>expected</i> you</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
to flick it </div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
to the ground</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
and you did</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
with a twist </div>
<br />
<div style="text-align: left;">
of your wrist</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
i just didn't expect</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
you </div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
to make </div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
me</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
walk on the pieces</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
barefoot and </div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
bleed-ing</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
all because i don't need you to breathe</div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: left;">
or be<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
<br /></div>
sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-56486713169056002102013-09-23T03:27:00.000-05:002013-10-06T18:24:41.911-05:00timing (and maybe silver linings)<br />
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they flitted around,<br />
like birds<br />
<br />
sketching<br />
his words<br />
<br />
absorbed in<br />
the dance of his hands,<br />
<br />
i very nearly missed<br />
the glance<br />
<br />
<br />
(nearly)sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com1Durango Durango24.018955 -104.674951tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-2956086019978828182013-09-19T18:21:00.000-05:002013-09-23T16:18:24.106-05:00lest you forget<br />
<span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;">I'm
pregnant. I let the words roll around my mouth, my tongue. It's yours and I'm
pregnant. It sounded foreign. Pregnant. I'm pregnant and it's yours. How do you
tell an almost stranger that you're carrying their child? I sat in my car, the
heater blowing stale air at my face, no tears. The trees were bare, the ground
cold, hard. An empty bird's nest sat, half undone, in the crook of a branch.
Just sitting. Waiting. <br />
<br />
Chiseled jaw line, hooded eyes. He was quiet, secretive. I'd met him at work.
Our first date was at a nondescript college bar, one gray, grainy afternoon, only one
month prior. Two nights later, we apparently hit the jackpot. Fuck. How did I
do this to myself. <br />
<br />
I drummed my fingers on the steering wheel, eyes flitting to the rearview mirror.
Waiting. His truck pulled into the lot, circled and parked. I was out of my car
in an instant, walking across the spaces, dead leaves crunching under my step. He got out and looked up, confused for a second and then his face
lit up, a smile spread across, his white, perfect teeth shone.<br />
<br />
He crossed the remaining space between us and walked to me, looking at me with
an expectant grin. Then he saw my face. And his changed. <br />
<br />
What's wrong?<br />
<br />
I just looked at him, the words I'd practiced frozen in my throat, not even
making it to my tongue. I looked down at the bottle he was carrying. Jack
Daniel's. It dawned on me that it was New Year's Eve. I looked up, the air icy
against my hot cheeks, chafing, burning.<br />
<br />
You're pregnant. <br />
<br />
It wasn't a question. It just was. There. It was out. I let my breath out.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: "Calibri","sans-serif"; font-size: 11pt; line-height: 115%; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-ascii-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-bidi-theme-font: minor-bidi; mso-fareast-font-family: Calibri; mso-fareast-language: EN-US; mso-fareast-theme-font: minor-latin; mso-hansi-theme-font: minor-latin;"><br />
I looked at him, stared through him. Nodded.<br />
<br />
The crack of his knees on the ground was like a gunshot. That sound told me
everything. I turned towards my car, as he kneeled, dumbfounded, in the
middle of the parking lot.<br />
<br />
<br />
</span><br />
<br />
<br />
<br />sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-38724091114590092562013-08-20T11:03:00.000-05:002020-03-16T12:49:52.235-05:00checking inJust checking in with the land of blog. I've been out of the loop, lately, but I just wanted you who read my shit to know that I'm not dead. Lots of overwhelming changes in my life, recently, and I've been slightly uninspired. Just bogged down. <br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">swing of things....get it? get it? i'm funny.</td></tr>
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I resigned from my first teaching job and accepted a job in Mexico, sold my house and just about every item in it, save my coffee maker, some mugs, and my clothes. Ok, and some books. I've been a bum, and currently, child and I are camping at my parent's house in Houston, waiting on our visas to come through, so we can get over to Durango. The school year actually started Monday, there, so I will be coming in late, which is daunting. Hopefully, we will be there within the next two weeks.<br />
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Hope you all are well. I will try to get back into the swing of things, soon. <br />
<br />sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-22450164828335013312013-06-18T12:35:00.000-05:002013-06-18T12:35:26.624-05:00on being five<div style="text-align: right;">
perched on the stoop,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
in his ketchup-stained</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
batman suit</div>
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she shooed him out,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
when that man pulled up</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
in his rusted-red toyoto</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
pick-up truck</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
counted ants, and</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
gingerly placed ritz cracker</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
crumbs in their path</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
wiped his nose</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
with the back of his hand,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
lodged tiny missiles</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
at the cigarette-stuffed</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
dr. pepper can</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
stared hard</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
into the blood-stained sun,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and when it started to fade,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
he closed his eyes</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
to the sounds</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
those sounds</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
from inside.</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
she was supposed to teach him how to tie his shoes today. </div>
<br />sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-59018186300732253352013-06-03T10:34:00.000-05:002013-06-03T12:32:56.921-05:00it reminds me<div style="text-align: right;">
the color yellow,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
it reminds me</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
of the mustard stain</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
on that old ranger’s shirt</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
(it eventually became mine)</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
that time </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
you caught a foul ball,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
cheeks rosy and chaffed</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
from the wind</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
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<div style="text-align: right;">
we snuck out,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
giggling, like teenagers</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
on a first date</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
while Bibby was pitching,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
to that drafty old ford</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
that was always out of gas</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
made it back inside</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
for the last inning</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
pretended not to notice</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
that couple who stared</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
(a few buttons were missing) </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
when it’s almost raining, </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
but not quite</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
just a slow trickle, </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
gaining momentum,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
it reminds me</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
of early mornings,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and your broken coffee pot,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
how it would sputter</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
the grounds would float, </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
dark, like ants,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
when you added cream</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and i would turn up my nose,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and drink it black</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
i would sit in front of your stove</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
because the heater was broken</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and read</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
while you worked intently</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
at your math </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
caught you staring</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
through the doorway,</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
once </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
i remember how you laughed</div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
and laughed </div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
<br /></div>
<div style="text-align: right;">
(and laughed)
</div>
sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-35348184444597318792013-06-02T22:39:00.001-05:002020-03-16T13:09:19.513-05:00silence is golden<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjowEONWRFJVrfXmvDTOcFFI0GwuN8gDnczFd94SJjVFEZ31wyrYwkulFpHszDyNOR-S226JjeB7AC6PlQmB6e8Lr8mInkxLWsPaz_8MQtrBBNPmyS-BWS4PMpYb7cHeqYvmu_N1USkiUM/s640/blogger-image--1882572401.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="297" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjowEONWRFJVrfXmvDTOcFFI0GwuN8gDnczFd94SJjVFEZ31wyrYwkulFpHszDyNOR-S226JjeB7AC6PlQmB6e8Lr8mInkxLWsPaz_8MQtrBBNPmyS-BWS4PMpYb7cHeqYvmu_N1USkiUM/s320/blogger-image--1882572401.jpg" width="320" /></a><br />
<br />
porch whispers <br />
at three in the morning <br />
citronella candle smoke <br />
burns sweetly in my nose <br />
humid nights<br />
and the sound of silence in the air <br />
the reason i can't find the words <br />
isn't because they aren't there <br />
it's just they sometimes get frozen <br />
by the intensity of your stare<br />
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<br />sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-58190154363375711452013-05-27T22:49:00.000-05:002013-05-27T22:49:46.980-05:00plans<br />
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-73479386454677894902013-05-23T10:37:00.000-05:002013-05-23T14:25:45.657-05:00hot july moon, summer of 99<div style="text-align: right;">
<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif; font-size: x-small;">twisted the warm water<br />out of my tangled hair<br />threw my head back,<br />and giggled at Carrie<br />as we danced in the spinklers<br />those sultry, texas nights</span></div>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-89936351825338363342013-05-22T20:37:00.000-05:002013-05-22T20:39:46.605-05:00your words, they wreck me<div align="left" class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-31173598529233701202013-05-15T13:48:00.000-05:002020-03-16T13:11:18.668-05:00brand new informationI've created another blog. Not because I'm deserting this one; the other one is for family and friends, and even former students, to follow Caden and me on our new adventures next year. We are moving to Mexico in August. Just accepted the position last night. So I created a travel blog to document the whole process. I'm not connecting the two as this one is for more personal stuff, and I can cuss here. I'm going to keep other one g-rated. Or try, at least. <br />
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Poetry-wise, I have several things to post, but they all need editing, and I haven't had time lately. I will try to post them soon. Miss all you lover-faces.<br />
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<a href="http://quesoadventures.blogspot.com/">http://quesoadventures.blogspot.com/</a> < ~~ new blog<br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">and bits of sand,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">grainy against raw skin.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Calibri;">laughter floats up,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">answering voice is low,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">somber, in drink<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">soured reek of seaweed, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">cloying in this heat</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">languishes in the twilight</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">and my damp,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">salt soaked hair</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">sticks to the side </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">of my flushed cheeks</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">idly, i sip <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">from a plastic </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">swish sweet white wine</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">through my teeth</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">rusted red, time- worn</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">blows, stale and chilly </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">hum muffled</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">weak strains </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">from the clock radio </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">escape</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Otis Redding sighs</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">in my ear</span></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;">I’ve
been……. loooving you, </b></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: Calibri;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"> for soo looong now</b></span></i></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">shamelessly bleeds</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">briny against the craggy,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">jagged shore</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">muted mourning </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">of the sea gulls</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">wrenches me</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">from the inside out</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Calibri;">devastatingly beautiful</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">in its gritty allure</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">In the summer, I take Caden to the gulf. Galveston Bay. Usually,
it’s just the two of us. It’s one of my favorite places to go. I do realize
it’s the redheaded stepchild of the beaches, but there’s something so
enchanting , so alluring about its grit. The mess of seaweed, twisted, bunched
on the beach. The ramshackle, salted wooden houses, wasting away- their ratty,
threadbare curtains, a placid, slight movement in the dark windows. There are
so many stories to be found, it seems, down each crumbling, broken road, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>and each will eventually lead you down to the
coarse, rocky beach. We stay at the Commodore. It’s old.
Cheap. Brick walls. Faintly stained curtains. Sliding glass doors that
don’t latch all the way, so a layer of salt coats the mirrors. I adore that
hotel, because every room faces the ocean, and every room has a story. At night, after little dude
falls asleep, buried, underneath sheer sheets, sweaty hands clutched around his
worn, cotton stuffed tiger, I step out on the balcony, plant my ass down in
the plastic lawn chair, and just breathe.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>And
think.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-32544374468178033122013-04-17T12:07:00.000-05:002013-04-17T12:07:44.336-05:00pray about it<span style="font-family: "Bohemian typewriter"; font-size: 9pt;"><o:p> </o:p></span><br />
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sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-73255537793169091412013-04-16T14:11:00.001-05:002020-03-16T13:14:50.088-05:00lets talk about the weather<span style="font-family: "calibri";"></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">The weather is bipolar, as of late. I’ll drift
off, in shorts and a wisp of a tank top, my </span><span style="font-family: "calibri";">book, cast aside, sometimes dropping onto my
chest, sometimes onto the worn, wooden floor, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the ceiling fan lazily rousing <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>the humid air, clammy against my warm skin,
hair still damp from the shower. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Yet,
I’ll wake with goose bumps on my pale, freckled legs, tangled in the sheets, as
I apparently tried to pull them tightly around in sleep, against the chill of the early hours.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I wake up at about 3, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>every morning. I don’t know why. It’s automatic.
My house is old and timeworn; I live in the Texas flat lands, where the winds
constantly offend. The sinewy bushes against my windows scrape, back and forth,
nails on a chalkboard. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My wind chimes,
outside, which sound so charming in the milky light of day, are haunting. I can
hear my German shepherd, Sadie Mae, moving around the house, restless. My
little one, snoring softy, next to me, sometimes incoherent words, sighs, escaping
his dream world, slipping through his sweet lips. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I’ll lay there, in the dark, with my thoughts. Sometimes, I’ll
scroll through instagram, though most of my ig friends are on my time, and
usually asleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But mostly, I just
think. I don’t even realize I’ve fallen back asleep until my alarm pulls me
back into the world of the living, muted pink hues spreading up the walls, a blush, pushing the shadows away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">In a few months, I’ll be falling asleep in a different bed,
in a different city, with different lights casting different shadows around my
room. I wonder if I’ll still wake at 3 am.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "calibri";">I’ve some new stuff to put on here, but I have to
take some pictures to go with, first. Stay tuned.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
sweetapplerumhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/00363027832421502347noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5699487396722563372.post-71163116734096383822013-04-05T12:17:00.003-05:002013-04-05T12:27:51.281-05:00watching her melt<br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">-for haley-</td></tr>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">he settles in
beside her</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">tucks a wisp of
her hair</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">behind her torn
ear</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">shredded by his prose</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">splintered letters,
words, <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>pieces</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">coalesce with wax
and blood</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"></span></o:p> </div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">p</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">down sallow,
freckled cheeks</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">he turns her upside
down</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">and holds her,
until her face is aflame</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">observes the wax
and blood gather</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">into a delicate,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">heart-shaped mold</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">hands, stuffed in
his pocket,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">he strokes his
interminable</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">supply of matches,</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">lights the wick</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">and lets it
burn down</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Calibri;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">to the quick</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">again<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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